My bestest friend sent me this article, and it makes sense =o)...
   ...What can I say??? It's in my nature~ but seriously I need to start considering myself for a change.

>>Healthy Reflections:
    The dangers of people pleasing

No matter how hard you try, no matter how many hours you spend pondering and planning, and regardless of making your hardest efforts, you absolutely cannot please everyone. It is impossible. So do yourself a favor and stop now before you drive yourself further towards insanity. There are many drawbacks to being a people-pleaser. A big one is that you often put yourself in a position of subservience. Sometimes you even put yourself last, which helps no one. Remember that helping yourself and doing what you feel is important should be valued. Find worth in your own opinions and viewpoint, and don't let your desire to please others compel you to keep yourself in the background. Falling short of perfection only proves that you are a normal human being.

21 Things To Think About
Current mood: mellow

Rosie sent this to me~ and it's a good list of things to think about.
It all makes sense, in ways...

1. No on can ruin your day without YOUR permission.
2. Most people will be about as happy as they decide to be.
3. Others can stop you temporarily, but only you can do it permanently.
4. Whatever you are willing to put up with is exactly what you will have.
5. Success stops when you do.
6. When your ship comes in, make sure you are willing to unload it.
7. You will never "have it all together".
8. Life is a journey... not a destination. Enjoy the trip!
9. The biggest lie on the planet: "When I get what I want, I will be happy."
10. The best way to escape your problem is to solve it.
11. TAKERS lose, and GIVERS win.
12. Life's precious moments don't have value unless they are shared.
13. If you don't start, it's certain you won't arrive.
14. We often fear the thing we want the most.
15. He or she who laughs... lasts.
16. Yesterday was the deadline for all complaints.
17. Look for opportunities, not guarantees.
18. Life is what's coming - not what was.
19. Success is getting up on more time.
20. Now, is the most interesting time of all.
21. When things go wrong don't go with them.

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Work & Politics >_<

So what job doesn't deal w/ politics?

The answer is probably NONE! Any corporate office you walk into deals w/ the big-mouths (the CEO's, Presidents, etc) that get on by promoting their asses as if they know what goes on in the corporate office. Then you have the Supervisors that walk around and act as if they have Seniority over the damn place just because they serve under the big mouths. Then you deal w/ the 'REGULARS' that act as if they work just as hard as you, but really they half-ass their tasks and still get benefits. They can come in to work and do whatever the F--- they want. Then you have people like me that are the 'NON-REGULARS' in other words 'CONTRACTORS'. The corporate office probably 8 out of 10 times think we're just slave workers. We work w/out the benefits and get poorly paid. So where does all the work go? Who does the work???

PEOPLE LIKE ME!
Makes me sick, because no matter how hard I work....I will never be appreciated for the contributions I make for the company. Of course the supervisors have expectations, but what are they to expect? You don't see them contributing themselves to the company? I mean honestly~ what the fuck do they do? Half of the time you see them sitting on their asses probably abiding time until some shit hits the fan. Or when the big mouths want them to kiss their ass. I mean SERIOUSLY!! How sad is that?

I believe I work hard, and I probably do go beyond what I should be doing....but I can't help that my work ethics are in good deeds. I work hard for what's right, and I try and do it the right way. I'm not blond, but I work w/ common sense....and it just gets me when I have to deal w/ morons at work that don't pay attention or don't know what the fuck they are doing. I get tired, and my patience starts to wear out. I mean why they fuck do I have to go the extra mile to do somebody elses work? Who the fuck does that?

Here I was working my precious time doing something that I don't even like, but yet the supervisors expect more out of me? Who the fuck do they think I am? I only mean well~ but I know what I'm capable of, and I know how my work gets done. I don't need somebody to access my work or organize the way I do things. I'm sure everybody has their own way of doing things, and I sure in hell do too.

Since when did the corporate world start having concern for productivity?
I guess they've been having concern w/ mine, since I guess I'm one to not do enough? Makes me feel like shit for the most part =o), epecially for someone that puts in a whole amount of work. To make matters worse~ I don't even get to do what I like most, which is DESIGN...and now they're concerned? If they only knew what I had to go through. They make it seem like it's easy to talk to customers. Well~ wouldn't I like to see their asses making 30 + call outs in a week, and keeping track of what content is coming in, or what calls need to be followed up on, or what forms need to be filled out, along with inquiries that need extra attention. To be quite honest~ I don't even get paid enough for the shit I do, and now they're concerned that I don't design. I WONDER WHY?!!! I don't need them to tell me what everbody else does, because I'm obviously not one of them. I'm not a worker that's going to half-ass my shit and make my productivity look great, cause the truth is~ probably the ones that do give good productivities are the ones that are BS.

siGh*....I guess everything comes within the cost of doing business?

Is that why I don't get paid enough? Is this why I have to be stuck doing something I don't even enjoy? How sad is that? We should be getting paid w/ the amount of money for what we went to school for, and loving/enjoying our job. As much as I've been working~ this company just makes me want to change my career. Makes me think twice for the next time I step foot in another corporate office, but for the most part....I really need to get my ass out, because it's eating the good in me. For someone to tell me that I have to contribute my own wknds into doing something I really want to do~ this job is sooooo not worth it. They can kiss my @ss! FUCK THIS!!!

I'M A DESIGNER!!
"Life, Love, and the Pursuit of Design!!"

...LOST & My Next Design-Nerdy Investment...

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CURRENTLY WATCHING:

..Sooo anybody into LOST?..

Yea =o...I just sat through almost the whole 1st season w/ my best friend watching it. This TV series sucked me in...and got me twisted, and now I can't STOP =o. I have lots of catching up to do before they air back on the 7th of Feb. Doode...I'm going to end up being a fat couch potato, cause 'One Tree Hill' is coming back in a couple weeks, and that series has got me hooked, along w/ Beauty and the Geek =P.

Anyhow....I walked around Fry's earlier today, and I found me the perfect laptop I want to invest in =D.
How about a Tablet PC?

Feast your eyes =). Droooooool =P'.
This newly equipped laptop device has a built in tablet, and it just looks waaaay coooool! I couldn't get my hands off it, and it has become my #1 wish list =P. If I had one of these...my days of carrying my personally owned WACOM tablet is history. You'd see me 24/7 with this. Talk about NERD!!

What can I say...I'm a designer, and designers are pixel-anal =).



Sooo...birthday present anybody??
Donate your funds now for Shirley's 2007 bday present =P!! hehe...